During my pregnancy I developed gestational diabetes. Through my research, I know that can be a cause of stillbirth, but the reason I lost Colin was specifically due to the cord being to tight. Usually with diabetes dr.s worry about the babies being larger but my son was a perfect 7lbs 8 ozs. Even though I am always looking for answers I truly believe in my heart that the gd did not play any part in my son becoming an angel. Anyways, after the pregnancy, I never got rid of the diabetes like most women do. I have been on shots since July. When I was pregnant, I was on three insulin shots a day. After I lost my son due to a cord accident I started meeting with my family doctor and going to weight watchers to try to get rid of some of the baby weight. My doctor switched my insulin and dosage. I am now only on one shot a day. My husband and I decided that before we ttc again, I would work on trying to get my sugar under control and hopefully be able to stop the insulin. I am so happy that it is finally getting there. My sugars are normal. I may not have to take insulin anymore. The doctor said when I meet with him next month that he will probably start weaning me off the insulin. I kinda think this is a little sign, that maybe we are closer to being able to try again to bring home a healthy baby. I have also since lost all of my baby weight! I'm so happy and excited that things are starting to look a little better. I also often get a feeling that the next time we try it will work out and we will truly get to bring home a healthy baby. I am not sure if that is just my hopes and dreams or if it's my son telling me that things are going to be okay. Do any of you ever get that feeling? Thank you all for listening to me and being there for support.
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