Well I'm back from my Appt. And He said pretty much what I thought he would. All of the Test Results came back normal. She was fine. My Placenta was fine. BUT on the small side. Which lead him to believe it was a Placental Placement problem. I have a Bicornial Shaped Uterus. So he thinks that maybe the Placenta attached in a difficult place therefore cutting off oxygen and nutrients. But of course that's only what he thinks. He thought it was a good thing that nothing showed up because there's nothing to fix. He doesn't see this happening again and that we can try again after I get my period. Physically I am totally healed. He does want me to do a follow up Ultrasound After I get my period to check on my uterus and a small cyst that I have. But he said that it's just to see what's going on. He doesn't think there is anything more we can do the next time. Im sure extra things to make me feel better, but nothing can prevent it from happening. I wish I felt better after leaving, but unfortunately I don't. I held in the tears until after I left. Everyone at the Doctor's Office was asking me how I was doing and telling me I was in their prayers. And I know they mean well but it kills me to have to talk about it. I just still have no answers and I probably won't. It's going to be one of those times where I'll just have to let it go. But I can't help but wonder WHY. Why did my body do this? She was perfectly healthy. It just makes me so furious.
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