It has been 5.5 months since my loss. My SIL had her baby boy 3 weeks after my loss. My cousin had her baby girl a few days after I was due in August. Every single woman I was pregnant with has had her baby. I was dealing really well. Now, my friend who lives i mile away and whom I was also pregnant with just had her baby boy on Sunday morning. I am green with envy....more than with anyone else. I can't stand this feeling. I am very jealous and I think about it all the time...it is ruining me. I have a hard time thinking about them in the hospital, you all know.....imagining the happiness....It kills me. I can't talk to anyone around me they all try to make me see the lighter side...they have no idea how I am dying inside. They say things like..."people will continue to have babies and you should try to think of how you want to react and control your emotions". Its like, really? Are you speaking from experience? You were able to control your emotions after the death of your child? Oh, you never experienced that? Then shut up. Sorry, I am just so stressed out about this. I could crawl out of my skin Just needed to vent. I hope you are all getting through your days with some peace.
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