I know that I am totally sabbotaging myself. By not letting myself accept that the loss of our son is a BIG DEAL, I am shutting off from my husband. I don't want him to think that I am making a bigger deal out of this grief than what it really is. I know that is ridiculous, and my insecurities are getting the better of me. My husband has been a pillar of strength through out this, and he is my proclaimed protector. Why then, do I continue to fear that others (he) will judge me for my thoughts? I don't want my sadness to bring others down. It's only been 9 weeks since we lost our darling baby boy...why can't I just let myself greive????
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