Hi.. Im trish... didnt know they had a site for this.. I was 40 and got pregnant..not a planned pregnancy...but thought here we go again... and i was diabetic...to I was high risk.. 10 years ago this month... Aug 19th i gave birth to a baby boy 9lbs 1oz.. full term.. there was a blood clot in the cord... which cause his death.. I was crushed as most of you know.. Well it took me at least 7 yrs to come to terms with it.. I turned to alcohol to deal with the grief.. there still after 10 yrs isnt a day that goes by i dont think of noah james.. I didnt hold noah.. think back then i was in shock.. my family said it probably wouldnt have been a good idea. he had been passed on inside me for 3 days and i didnt know it. he felt heavy but.. thought it was just getting ready for birth.. I was scheduled a c-section aug 29th.. which I feel the doc could have taken him early due to my age and health. but.. i didnt happen.. after 10 yrs now.. my heart and arms still ache for him.. I dont drink anymore... havent for 3 yrs now.. I can only tell you it gets a bit better as the years pass.. but it still tugs at my heart.. hugs to everyone here. for i know your pain.. gbless everyone.. :)
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