Yesterday was a hard day. I felt like crying the whole time I was at work - and I work in a call center so I cant just get up and go cry whenever I feel like it. I have to force myself to smile and hold my tears back until I'm done with taking calls. Right when I walked out to my car I started crying. I hate feeling like that. & to make things even worse I had the worst panic attack ever when I got home. I was shaking the whole time and felt like I was going to pass out I was so scared. I just wish this pain would go away. I cant stand to see people happy or hear people talk about their pregnancy. I cant avoid women so I guess I'm going to have to learn to deal with it, but right now Brooklynne's death is too fresh in my mind that I can't help but get pissed off and annoyed when I hear other girls talk about their pregnancy, sometimes I just want to go sit in a corner by myself. I hope things get better soon, IDK how much longer I can deal with this.
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