It has been one week yesterday since I lost my baby girl..I am starting to have anxiety really bad about something happening to me or my husband or my children...I have always had anxiety but have been able to manage it.. this is really taking a toll on me..I know in my heart my family is not complete and know that I want to try again someday.. but this anxiety has set in and know I think no way, never again which then further depresses me and then triggers more anxiety about if I can try again cause I am 36 ..will be 37 in september...REAlistically I know I can get thru this,I did this with a miscarriage...but this is much more extreme...Just had to sound it off..feels better just to get it out of my head..My husband went back to work today and so I am trying to do some kind of normal routine which is anything but normal..I still feel like I am pregnant ,,because that is all that I have known for 9 months and there is no baby here...and can I just say this taking my older daughter to school today was so hard.. all the parents would just stare at me and then others who would always wave ignored me like the plague...now I dread having to pick her up.. I just want to stay in my own little world..whew!!!!!!!!!!okay just dumped alot out..feeels good though,thanks for letting me vent!! I keep you all covered in my prayers!
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