So last night I uncovered the truth in that he had been lying to me. The fact that I had almost 400 less texts then he did this month made it clear. He still lied to me when I confronted him. Since we are sharing this house together made it to where we had extra rooms so he moved to the other side of the house. Its killing me cause rather then acting like it hurt him and him acting like he cared that this is killing me he climbed up in the attic and started rewiring for him to have internet in that room. I went to sleep 5 or 6 hours ago but abruptly awoke at 8AM... I just had that feeling I always had when he would wake up early or in the middle of the night and hed take his computer and move out to the living room to resume his roleplay so that I wouldnt wake up. Every time I did wake up and every time hed try to hid it... stupid him or was it stupid me. As much as I hurt and as cry I have never been able to think of my life without him.... I never wanted that and I still dont. I figured if I wasnt alive then I wouldnt be around to be lied to and let down by him, by my parents and anyone that might cross my path, cause its bound to happen. That would be a true blessing I think right now, sadly the one person that has always told me not to give up wasnt him but my bestfriend that I cant even see right now. I guess needless to say Im going crazy in my head right now... I want out of life!
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