I am sitting here second guessing myself. Wondering if I am being obsessive about the porn. Is there the slim possibility I am overreacting? I have seen what a lot of you have been through and some of it is so much worse than what I am dealing with. I have been through this b4 but it was 5 yrs ago the last time and the situation was different and we were different. Am I justified about worrying it could come to that again if I didn't put my foot down? Since I put on the software without telling (but only after I checked his history) and he found out today, I have felt so guilty. I just wanted to protect my family, is that so wrong? Yes this time i found pics but only 5. But the last time it got really bad and he had zip drives and floppy disks from work full of pics. I thought that if he was saving a few it would escalate. Am I right? Now I have to worry cuz he feels betrayed for me not telling him, but he found out about the software cuz he tried to look at porn after we talked about it. Is it ever gonna stop? Or am I doomed to a viscious cycle. I understand what he is going through trying to relieve stress by masturbating. I delibrately tried it myself to put myself in his shoes. I have used porn to try and understand. Very dangrous btw lol Part of me wants to punish myself for being so weak and letting myself be had again. I know I did the right thing with the software but why do I feel so horrible? is it cuz I got caught snoopin or because I .......ugh lost my train of though
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