We had our first session today after church with the pastor who came to our home free of charge, who also has experience in dealing with men who are SA or PA. Also the fair went okay except there were about 5000 girls there that were dressed like streetwalkers which always makes me uncomfortable like he is staring at all of them. So anyway it went fine our children enjoyed themselves and my 2 eldest loved their "date" with dad on friday night and I think he appreciated getting some time alone with them. Today was the first day of counseling and there is alot to sift thru.... my PA H started crying and seemed to be genuine about his emotions when we got into the night in Nov. 2006 when he left our home to go to his coworker and that was the time the physical stuff occurred.....he cried and said he wished he would have stayed with me that night......I begged him not to go I tried to take his keys, he said he needed 1 hour to "talk" to her.... I knew if he walked out of the home he would not come back that night and would have sex with her and my marriage would never be the same again, he did and its not and i dont think i can ever let that go.......he left me so hurt that night and i have been hardening myself towards him protecting myself ever since, the porn has just compounded the whole issue and made it worse.....I don't know where to go from here.
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