Well my mood swings are still there. But I'm recognizing them, and dealing with them more rationally. My H did get that job with the State and starts 08-04. This is good. He'll finally be the one to carry insurance, and the child can be covered too. (it also means I can start bringing home more $$ from my own pay check) I unfortunatly was assigned to a new boss effective 08-04 too, I'm really struggling with this. He's a racist pig who I have zero respect. I feel like I have way too much baggage in my life to accept this idiot. Trust me girls, there's a history there, and I could actually see myself going off on this guy within a week. Oh well, I'll deal with it. My h's new job is about an hour away, and I want to move. My H says ok, but I think he's just appeasing me. I took my 11 yr old to the drive-in last night. (had a great date with him) but I just kept looking around to see if the OW was there with her kids. I simply hate it here. I still get dressed up to go to the darn grocery store. Heaven forbid she ever see me on a bad day. I do not want her in my world. The in law situiation is over for me. I pretty much have decided that loss of family is of no consequences to me. I have my own loving family who supports me and all of my decisions...good or bad. My dad has recently really become my rock. I know deep down he thinks i should leave my H, but he's been there for me along with my mom, my siblings and even my extended family. Everyone knows. I sometimes regret telling my H's family...but not my family. It's been tough for my H. He knows the holidays are going to be bad. I told him this is the way it is...I will never go to your parents or sisters homes again & I will never invite them to mine. Of course he's welcome to go visit them whenever he wants but he had to be prepared I will never go with him. He obviously does't like it, but understands. In the meantime he hasn't really been talking to his family. He hasn't spoken to his mother since our sons graduation 06-07. She did call 1 time to inform him a cousin had passed away. When my H calls there, he asks to speak to his dad only. An Aunt approached me at that babyshower a few weeks ago. She hinted that I'm going to have to be the bigger person because we all know how stubborn my ML is. I advised her I was the bigger person the day I forgave her son and that was the biggest I was ever going to get. I was ot confrontaional, I did not throw a scene, but my obvious ignoring of their existance was very noticable by all.