For many years I avoided social situations and relationships, and I think one of the reasons I began doing this was that I had some early experiences where I completely humiliated myself when my anxiety caused my mind to go blank. People would ask me a simple question which I knew the answer to, but because I was socially anxious I would not be able to recall it. The best example I remember, was when I was at some type of class gathering at the end of the year in high school, and a girl approached me and tried to make conversation by asking me what teachers I had during the year that had just ended. I got nervous, and was unable to remember any of their names. She joked about it and said something like "wow, they were really memorable people", which is actually kind of a funny response in retrospect, but at the time all I could think about was how stupid I looked and how I had humiliated myself. Of course after she left I recalled all the names, once my anxiety level came down, but knowing that there was a chance my mind would go blank in social situations is one reason I began avoiding them. I recognize now that this problem was caused by anxiety, but I used to think it was just stupidity, and it made me feel ashamed.
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