I want to be outside soooo bad, the weather is perfect, and I know it is beutiful. But I can't. I can't leave my house unless I absolutly have to, I am too afraid I will see someone from my "past". For about two years now I have been isolated from pretty much everyone but my two older sons. The social life I once knew ended all in one horrible day. My entire life as I knew it ended. Now, I am so alone, and so sad. I have no friends, I very rarely see family, and when I do they all have their own issues. I go to the store, usually days after we run out of what-ever. And a few apts and thats it. And even then I make it as quickly as possible. And just recently I got totally paranoid on this site and embarrassed myself in a big way. so now I feel like a freak even here. I'm so tired of feeling like a freak. I didn't realize so many people had the same kind of problems.
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