Oh my oh my!!! have i lost my mind? I quit smoking on jan 21, 2008.. I think i did well, i have though of it thousands of times, but it got better. Then today. I had such a bad day,, it started with my exhusband and crazy stuff that i thought i had escaped by divorcing him, but we have children together and some times his insanity is forced upon me because we are connected through our children. The day just got worse and worse, and then i got in an argument with my boyfriend who just stormed out and left, then my daughter got pickup by some boy in a pick up truck (her first car date ) I wanted to throw up and cry at all the same time. I just flipped out and lost it. I got into my car and bought a pack of cigarettes. I smoked one and I feel sick, but i am also freaking out so bad I do not know what to do. I called everyone I know, of course no one is around today. So i humbly crawl back here to my friends who helped me when i first quit. I have been away for awhile, i guess naively thinking i was strong enough 0n my own... boy was i wrong. Please help me throw them away.. I have hid them so no one finds them, but i cant bring myself to destroy them,,,
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