About a month ago I was smoking 3 packs a day... was normally a 2 pack a day smoker, my smoking went up with dealing with the stress of a divorce, and still living with my ex for a month after we decided to split up... I moved out to Nebraska, 12 hours from home, to stay with my boyfriend... since I've been out here, I was keeping it to about 5 cigs a day... I have to smoke outside and it's been FREEZING outside! lol Over the past few days I've been more up to about half a pack a day. I don't know why I've gone back up on it. I feel bad because when I come inside after smoking, the smell really bothers my boyfriend... he gets on to me about it a lot. I don't know if I want to totally quit. I don't mind just keeping it cut back a whole lot. I went all day today until 4pm without a cig then went and bought a pack. I've had a few days where I've gone all day without a cig but the next day I go buy a pack. This is sooooooo hard!!! And I know there are things to do instead of smoking, chew on a straw, chew gum, eat hard candy... but I'm stubborn, I want that cig instead. *sigh* I will quit one day, I know I will, just so much going on in my life right now and I don't know if I'm really ready.
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