I'm 66 years old and so ashamed of smoking. My husband (a non-smoker) knows and one other close friend. I never smoke in the house or in my vehicle. , I don't smoke at friends homes, church, outings, around my grand daughters, BECAUSE I'M SO ASHAMED!!! I can go 5 or 6 hours without it, but the minute I get home, lighting up is the first thing I do! Recently,my breathing has gotten worse (allergies and asthma), coughing up a lot, and I'm sick of myself! On top of that, my youngest son will be released from prison in 4 weeks after being in for 2 years ( and I used to be ashamed of telling people that!)and he's been smokefree from the day he went in. I don't want to be a negative influence on him when he's released, probably more than my personal health issues. Day before yesterday I put KILZ primer in my hall prior to painting and by night I could hardly breath. But I probably smoked 7 or 8 cigarettes that day! Yesterday after a couple morning cigarettes, I put on the patch. I haven't had one since but I'm scared I might backslide. I don't feel the caffeine deprivation as much as I don't know how to avoid the little habits - going out on the deck to talk on the phone, (light up time!) or after a meal, or when I'm feeling stressed. I really need your support and prayers to get me through this!!
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