Hey y'all. I haven't been on DS in awhile, due to working like crazy, but I am still smoke free since my slip, which was 2 cigarettes on August 27. My problem is the depression. I always was a closet smoker, my average was 5-7 cigarettes per day. Now, I have this intense anxiety and depression about all of the damage that has been done to my body. Things I never thought of while I was smoking. My lungs are damaged. My arteries are damaged. My throat is damaged. I panic about having lung cancer or a heart attack. I can't sleep anymore, because of the worrying. I have no appetite. I am literally grieving over the damage that I have done to the one body God gave me. I am currently on medication for anxiety/depression, but fighting this is brutal. I'm calling my psychiatrist in the morning, to see if he is able to adjust my medications. Has anyone else gone through this? If so, how did you cope? Hope all of you are doing well, and keep fighting to further protect yourselves!
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