I hope this doesn't make everyone mad, but is there no one out there who is having a hard time? I am at six weeks and I just am not any better, in fact the last couple days ahve been the worst of all, and everyone else just seems to be sailing right through. I know I'm just discouraged, but so much of this has to do with my mood. What is wrong with me? I am an intelligent person and I know that smoking was killing me; I was doing ok, but now I seem to be falling apart; my mom was in the hospital and on the mend but I was short tempered with her the past couple days I just can't be around anyone. I yelled at my husband for really no reason except that he is still smoking yesterday; And why can I not get over the feeling that my life will never be fun again? Outside was where I talked to my husband, relaxed, now I feel as if I can never go outside again, and I am so tired of being inside!!! I never talk to him anymore, and what he does say irritates me so much. We havent been intimate the whole six weeks because I just can't face it. I can't even spend time with my son for too long because I don't have the patience. My life is falling apart. I know I am the one who whines all the time, but it would be nice - if there is anyone out there, to tell me that this wasn't just a walk in the park for them.
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