Today was day 5 for me and by far is the hardest. I just don't get it. Why after 5 day's is it soooo hard. I even lit up and put it right back out today. I have been at the VA hospital all day with hubby for an appt. with his TBI specialist and things didn't go his way again. He has been on one today. I cant's do anything right. Him and our daughter were cursing at each other. Of course this was not cool and I had to referee as hubby doesn't have the ability to know what is appropriate to say. She knows this, but lost control tonight. I want to be mad at them both, but mostly at her as she doesn't have a brain injury; he dies. Anyway thank you for letting me vent. Do I start over from day 1 again. Part of me say's yes that it is just like my sobriety. I did loose control and light up taking a drag. That is just like one sip of alcohol. I would if it were a drink. Someone told me in hugs today that the most important thing is not to lite that first smoke. Good advice, I knew better and did it out of frustration at VA.
Posts You May Be Interested In
Hi i found out i had hcv about 4 years ago but i think i may have had it for 15+ years. Anyway i started harvoni on the 1st of sept 2018 so im into my 3rd day. The first 2 days i fealt ill. Weak and sickly. But today for the first time in years i woke up full of energy and feeling fabulous..i have cleaned the full house and even satvin my living room all day..normally im in bed for naps 4 or 5...
Why did I quit smoking???? Well, originally when I "started" to quit I was just tired of seeing the money go up in smoke... literally. That didn't really work...Oh, I cut down a lot from one pack to 4 smokes a day.....Yeah, I can live with this. Then 4.5 years ago my husband got sick and went to the Doctor. Words I didn't like, couldn't pronounce, couldn't spell started to become part of our...