Well here I am with the desire to share my story. I don't know if I'm seeking more knowledge from people or if I just want to converse with others like myself. Whatever the reason here I stand. I am 24 and have been a smoker for 5 years. I started around 19 by hanging out with the wrong crowd. I should've known better. My mother died when I was only 5 from emphysema. I watched my grandmother who raised me die slowly from lung cnacer. Yet I proceeded on becoming a smoker. I think it may carry in the genes. You know, some sort of predisposition of certain tolerance levels. Who knows...I couldn't quite for anything or anyone. Even when my sister passed away back in 2005, who was the love of my life, my best friend, could I quit for her. Day in and day out she told me to quit. I never did. She always gave me wise advice. She told me that if I really wanted to quit, I wouldn't wait. I'd stop saying for news years or next year I'll quit. I never got around to doing so. Until a month ago when I just found it within myself to not take that run to the gas station for a pack. Ever since than, I've not taken one puff. I went from a pack a day to 0! I've been so happy since. I wake up no more hacking up a lung. Now I can actually look foward to my future. I recently graduated college and told myself it's the beginning of my real life. I've had so many hardships in my life. I was so addicted, but I found the strength and did it. Now that I'm writing this I found the real reason I'm sharing my story. Hoping I could be an inspiration to someone else struggling out there. I still have my desires and cravings. Mostly when I'm stressed or life is becoming bumpy I want to run for a cig fix. But I remember the event will pass as the desire will as well. It's not worth all the hard work. What you need it faith in yourself. Faith you can accomplish anything in life. Despite the odds of losing my entire family...I still found the inner strength. I will never relapse and I will never fail. I have gone through a lot worse than this and nothing has thrown me to my knees and made my give up. A piece of crap cancer stick will not be the first! I just want everyone to know I am a month in healing and counting. I will never let a cigarette weaken me again. I'm too good for that as you all are as well. Have faith in god, life, and most importantly yourselves!!! The world still turns and destiny still unravels as it should. Everything falls into place. You may think you will not enjoy life or given events or social situations, but believe me you will. You will enjoy it more knowing you could take that long healthy breath and look foward to a full life ahead of you!! Always remember that smokers are all on auto-pilot...they don't even realize or focus on the smoking act itself!!! So how can you think you won't enjoy life without puffing that nasty smoke??!! No one is perfect and don't let anyone make you feel guilty if you're not ready yet. You'll know when you are! It's all psychological!!! All in your head...I am 1 month cold turkey and will never go back to that phase in my life!! My love and blessings to all of you ready to endure that fight!! Please feel free to respond back....we all need support.
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