Well i have one ciggerette to go and then i am going to slap a patch on each lung and get this going. I quit once for almost 2 years. even lost weight doing it cause i was determined to not gain. I am 45 and been smoking since age 14. BAD BAD. I am going to be new grandmother and I really dont want to be a smoking one. Plus I am a singer and it has taken a toll on my voice. Now you would think i would have all the reason in the world to give it up easily but nope i have failed so many times it just makes it harder to get going again. Failure disappoints me and robs me of confidence. failure is suppose to be a stepping stone to not do what you did the last time. To top this all off. I do need to loose weight and I have major depressive disorder. Am i asking to much of myself and if I am where to I begin. my grandson Isaiah will be here in March I dont want to smoke any more. Is there anyone out there facing some of the same issue I am. I would love to talk to you and maybe we can help one another. by the way slapping a patch on each lung was a joke. Just one patch. I did try the chantax made me ill and really depressed. it was horrid. However i really didnt feel like smoking. I keep wanting to try it again but I am afraid. thanks for listening to my ramble
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