I work with a group of 27 women :o Out of this group there were 5 of us who smoked. One by one in the last months, they left me... So I am the only one going out on my break to smoke now. Its sad. I am so proud of them. But they just had to step out of the spotlight and leave it all focused on me. I am the one woman show now. So I get ALL the love when these women have the overwhelming urge, that deep need, to try to fix someone. I think I have narrowed it down to weight gain and desire though. I have to get a hold on my eating patterns first and then I think I can do this. I just wish they would lay off and understand that until I am ready they are just irritating me with thier well meant nagging. Sometimes I think I hold out just to irritate them back. I really dont know how to give up these damn cigarettes. Its a true love-hate relationship. But the love is sooo one sided.
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