I'm mad that smoking is bad for me. I'm mad that I can't just smoke and not have consequences. I'm mad that I feel so pissy inside. I'm mad that I got addicted in the first place. I'm mad that I expect myself to be perfect. I feel like I want to keep smoking just to say "HA! I can choose to do something wrong if I want". All sounds stupid and childish.... I'm big on psychology...I need to soul search to see why I really smoke...I've been an on and off smoker for 15 years...I guess if you work unsuccessfully at something for 15 years it'd make anyone mad.
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