If you don't stop right this minute, at least do the smoking outside so your kids don't have to breathe it, then get on the path and make a plan to really QUIT, we'll help you along that path...take the cigs outside though, it simply is unfair to smoke around children!

...and watch the video "How smoking affects..."it's on this discussion, it will no doubt give you some eye opening inspiration.

You may want to think seriously about quitting. The choice is yours. Go to 'youtube' and check out the Lady who smokes thru the hole in her neck, that may help you decide.

You are not stupid. You are addicted. Big difference.

DO the best you can to quit.
I have emphysema. I quit for five years after initial diagnois then started up again. It is so hard to give up these cancer sticks.

Get to the doctor and get checked out; then take it one day at a time.

Sounds like you are beating yourself up for having an addiction...we are addicts here and understand what you're going through. You were given great advice, take the smoking outside. There are ways to beat this addiction but you have to WANT to quit to be successful at quitting. There is nothing to be afraid of. So many smokers are terrified of the craves that come with quitting. I won't deny that craves are part of the quitting process and are not pleasant but they don't last forever (if they did would any of us succeed at quitting?) and in fact there are more benefits and sweet surprises that happen when you quit and they begin to become noticeable very early into our quits. Go see your doctor ASAP. If the idea of going cold turkey scares you (that too is easier than you would think) then there are other aids to consider...many many folks are having wonderful results with Chantix but as with any aid, it comes with side effects so that's something you will have to weigh out for yourself. You can do this, you just have to want it!

Hey don't feel stupid. Smoking is the worst addiction around and no one wants to say that. I smoked for over 50 years. Quit smoking cig's 6 years ago because I was living in Mexico and had problems with my lungs, Mexican Dr. told me if I did not quit don't come back to him as he had no time to cure someone that won't stop what is killing them. I stoped in 99 then a hurricane hit my house on the beach and it took 2 weeks for them to get to me and some man gave me a cigar so I was smoking would you belive 2 cigars a day. This Jan. I quit cigars and now I am smoke free but it is a battle. Try patches, those pills anything that might work. I carry around a cig holder so when it gets bad I pretend and breathe. My grandsons call it my pacifier but it works. Don't feel stupid just try everthing until you find the right method for you. It is so nice to breathe, smell flowers and not smell like smoke. Good luck, stay on this sight as it helps to have support. Hugs and Prayers to you.
Marsha