im really experiencing some guilt over the last few months. it is really hitting me how much time i have wasted of my life from smoking. its not so much the wasted time, but the time that couldve been spent with my kids. my son is going to start kindergarten next year and i only have this time left with him full time. i cant get back the time i have wasted with either of my kids. its the same story with my daughter, and she is 12 now. i think about the times i sat her in her bouncy seat to watch a video while i stepped out the front door to smoke. i couldve and shouldve, been playing with her. my son always seems to want my attention RIGHT when im ready to go out for a smoke. this addiction is really ruining my life and it HAS to go. for me and for my kids. i havent told anyone about this guilt ive been carrying for a long time and it feels good to get it out.
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