I am getting discourage and I don't want to fall off the wagon but today I feel like I am hanging on by a thread. I swear if I eat one more thing I am going to burst and I know I am just eating to replace not smoking.I keep telling myself that I need to start on my diet but don't know if that is wise to do right now...not smoke and not eat don't think I could do it without biting someones head off. Also it is such a beautiful day out today and I remember that days like today I couldn't wait for my breaks so i could go outside and light up without having to put on a coat and gloves. My chest feels heavy like I have a ton of bricks on it and if I just have one it would lessen the heaviness. I don't want to blow the 26 days I have under my belt but man today is a tough one. Thanks Friends for leting me vent, hopefully I can get through the rest of this day without falling.
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