I am so frusterated with myself. I was going to quit smoking on July 1, 2008 and then I done a mind game on myself. I forgot and smoked 1 cig and instead of going ahead of quitting, I smoked again. Anyway I have to go to a class on Saturday with only 2 smoke breaks all day. I am not taking smokes and hopfully I will not smoke after I have 10 hours without under my belt. I have to do this for me. I am going to die if I don't quit. I already have CHF and heart attack and COPD. I could use my husbands Head Injury as a reason to smoke, but that is only an excuse. At this point I am so mad at myself that I am not even making plans. I just know that I am not buying any and am in class from 8:00 a.m. to 4 p.m. on Saturday. Hoping for the best. I am my own worse enemy in this as I will find excuses not to quit. I am not looking for sympathy, just trying to beat myself at the game of self sabatoge.
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