Aww... Lovemy, hang in there. Take some deep breaths and picture yourself somewhere other than at home recovering. Maybe try to meditate for a while thinking of better times. Here is a big big hug to get you through this... Remember you are stronger than any addiction you may have. Just take on moment at a time.

thank you steeler..you know its funny how you forget the most obvious things sometimes: deep breathing! thanks for the reminder. that always helps calm my nerves and im actually doing it as i type..LOL.

Manda- you just went thru a very stressful time- the surgery and all the anxirty about it. I would think that would affect your mood. I am so proud of you that you stayed strong thru it all- you'll be ok, I just know it. There seems to be some tension in the ait la tely so I'm sure that doesn't help- but hang in there- you know you'll feel worse if you smoke!!! I love you pussycat!!!!

i agree with forerica. that was a big surgery you just went thru and your anxiety level had to have been up there. deep breathing, watching a favorite movie you haven't seen in awhile. you'll be okay. i'm around if you need me.

Lovemy2, U are doing great! ands thru so many circumstances! Joanna

Forerica is a wise woman! I think that could be it. Sorry you are feeling blue. I have a bit of that blue feeling for other reasons (silly ones)...anyway, I'm sending you a giant box of sun! May it shine down on you and keep you toasty warm! ;)

Hon, that surgery took a toll on you, you have to get over that, and the weather has been yucky, that don't help. Give your self a break, you can have some oh-oh days. Your bubbling attitude will shine through, give it a while.

thank you guys so much. i gotta take steps to snap myself out of it ...my husband was super sweet today..he took me out shopping cuz i was down...he walked around target with me and pretended he was happy to do it..:) sometimes it really helps just to know someone cares..you guys are all so sweet!

If anyone can get through, it's you lovemy2! You always live on the sunny side of life and I truly admire you. I have the same down feeling on and off, but it was particularly bad after I went off the Chantix. You never know how your body will react to medication and/or withdrawal! The most important thing to remember is you passed another test and didn't smoke!! The more we pass, the stronger we get. Shopping certainly can help. LOL. Today we went out shopping for my reward which is a REALLY fun game called "Apples to Apples". If you ever get a chance, it is a good mood booster!!

hey love with surgery comes depression it is kinda of natural and it will pass. You need to give yourself a break you have been thru alot with the holidays and then the Gb stuff. You need to heal now and you will get back to yourself. You are such a happy full of life and you have such a positive attitude. you can turn any neg to a positive....you will feel better cause we all ove you here!

Aw sweetie sorry ur feeling crap.Did your shopping trip cheer you up?What did you get???

it will pass just like the smoking craves, you are a strong person with a lovely personality, we love you lots of here,
so keep your chin up lots of smiles, sending love

HI there Lovemy.
Hope you are feeling better soon. Narcotics can most certainly upset your emotions - they make you high and then when they wear off - you kind of crash and burn. This is why they are so highly addictive. That feeling of coming down "hurts" and you the you feel the need for more meds to make it go away. Methinks this is the core of the depression.

If you are not taking the meds anymore, the emotional imbalance can last for a while. Good news is that this will wear off.
In addition to the after effects of narcotics, there is an emotional hangover relating to surgery. The anxiety and pain that has built up from the surgery need to leave your body - and they cause some emotional imbalance in the process. Even if the blues hang around awhile - they'll pass in short order. You'll be good as new soon.

BIG HUGS~RW

PS - I read your mood buster post and it reminded me of a funny story about self-tanning lotion. A few years ago, I ordered this fancy tanning lotion "of the stars" (yep - I was a sucker - they said Madonna and JLo use it so I figured I was in good company - although trust me - no tanning lotion is gonna turn this chick into JLo!!)
Anyway - I put the self-tanner on and in an instant I was beach girl. It turned me beautifully browned in seconds. I went to my friend's pool looking really well-bronzed like I spent two weeks on an island beach. I RARELY go outdoors (I am like Lilith from Cheers - totally milk white and I prefer the great "indoors" for sure). So my best friend was shocked to see me so tanned and said she was jealous of my beautiful brownish glow.
Well - a while later I went into the pool and OMG - all the tanning stuff starting dissolving off me like blood in the water. It looked like a shark attack - FOR REAL - the stuff came off me in swirls of reddish brown that people could see a mile away!! My friends near peed their pants watching me turn back into Casper.
Oh well - I was 'buff" for a while at least. Needless to say - the rest of that bottle of tanning lotion is now in a landfill somewhere!!!