I've been smoke free for 17 days now. I'm still not smoking no matter what, but I'm just here to say that I don't think I deserve any special kudos or anything for my so-called 'accomplishment" because it seems that if many thousands or whatever people can do it, so can someone like me. I came really close to smoking last night, as it was one of the single worst nights that I felt I'd ever had. I almost lost the love of my life because of a really stupid mistake I made. What does it matter? I did not smoke, though, and normally that would be something to be proud of but I just don't care anymore. Although, I must say that I am probably still somehow proud of myself or there must be some reward or something for NOT smoking or I wouldn't continue making an effort. Can anyone offer any words of encouragement? I just feel so hopeless as a person right now and I am as low as I've EVER been in my life.
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