As I went 8 years with out a cigarette and I smoked from when I was 14 until I was 30. Back in the beginning of October I had a relapse thinking I can have 1 here and there well that didn't last long before I knew I was up to a whole pack a day spending $70 a week on a gross disgusting comforting habit.
My anxiety for the last week and a half has been so intense. I been feeling ready to go and buy a pack of cigarettes. But if I do that will be back to the whole pack a day. Quoting for the 2nd time was a lot harder for me then it was the 1st time. I had went to the Dr and got the prescription to quit and I went thru the smoking censation program and it helped.
Now I can just go and kiss my husband with out having to make sure I have breath mints or have brushed my teeth or rinse my mouth out with mouth wash. Or going to the hassle for a cigarette by having to go out when ever I want one or if I'm going to have enough to last me.When I go to hug my daughter she's no longer telling me I smell gross fro. The cigarettes. I got my energy back.but the anxiety has not gone away.
With today being exactly 6 weeks since my last cigarette I've saved $420.00 in an envelope and I plan to keep adding to it and be motivated that money can be used on something much better and much more use full.I just hope I don't relapse because smoking only makes it worse I've already been writing all the positives down from not smoking but the urge is still there.As at 14 years old I didnt smoke to fit in or to be cool I tried because of anxiety and it help I just wish my mom didnt enable by buying them for me and allowing me to smoke in the house or in the car infact when she caught me and my sister she asked us for 1 and didnt even lecture or give us a hard time probably because she was a smoker her self and knew we would smoke anyway.Im glad I never liked alcohol or marijuana just smoking was my bad habit and I wish they were healthy. My sister has been smoke free for 1 year.
im worried about facing my grandmother. she is elderly, but she has a history of being controlling, manipulative, and using emotional blackmail to get her way. for many years, with her children, my mother, and my siblings. i can't do this anymore. people keep telling me to be strong and ignore whatever she says to me, but the constant winding up is taking a toll. she lives in the same house as...
7 YEARS Anni WooHooo.15372saved and 51,140 cigs I did not smoke.That number amazes me, that is a huge amount of yellow gunk and black tar not going into my lungs. No wonder I have severe emphysema with only 24% lung function. No wonder I cant breathe.