I have 3 kids age 17, 7 and 5 and im 8+ weeks pregnant! My kids were from my marriage to a man who i left over 2 years ago and who then 6 months later died. I met my bf 20 months ago and the situation is, (due to mental health issues) that he is, and always will live with his mother 10 miles away. Things have got harder since i told him about pregnancy and his mum has found many reasons (innocently) to keep him from coming over at planned times. He is looking for a job, and, if he gets one i have to face him only coming over maybe 1 day a week. Ive told him that a relationship is not sustainable like that - how can i love him totally for 1 night a week then spend the next 6 nights making myself not care? So, its a possibility that i'll be alone with my children and a newborn and i just cant face it! I think a lot about abortion but time is ticking and, if i couldnt do it at 6 weeks, how the hell will i do it at 9 weeks? how the hell can i cope with pregnancy, childbirth and then a newborn alone with all the other responsibilities? By the way, i have bipolar and there is an 85.5% risk that childbirth will trigger a severe episode that could result in me being hospitalised! Im terrified!
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