It's my first time posting, so I'm not really sure how this works. Just recently I have gotten back together with the father of my child. Things were never easy for us, there have been a numerous accounts of ups and downs. In my heart I know I want to be a family but my mind knows how this always goes, which makes it challenging to even really fully love him or expect a more positive outcome. My main interest is doing what I feel is best for my child, although he would love us both the same regardless.
When we are together he is much more helpful then when we are not. He has the ability to do a 360 when it comes to certain aspects of his behavior. It concerns me because I never know how things will actually pan out, what behaviors will last and what ones will fade and if I'm wasting my time ultimately. His qualtites are not my favorite and I think it will take a while to see growth but I'm not sure how much more of my time I can give him without gowing resentful.