My ex has missed more visitations then he has made. My oldest(4 1/2) is showing all the signs of feeling abandoned all over again. She will not sleep through the night, she clings to me, and she is constantly trying to sleep in bed with me. She has bad dreams again. She always says Daddy lost her or Daddy hurt her in her dreams. I am so frustrated because I have told my ex he is missing too many visitations but he dont seem to care. I was nice when I told him and then he started missing more visitations. I dont know what to do. Between getting up with bad drams and being up with my 3 month old for his middle of the night feeding, I am up most of the night and its starting to wear me down. I love my kids. All I want is my ex to either be part of their life or stay out. I cant take this in and out anymore. It is hard on the kids and it is getting hard for me. I always get stuck picking up the peices.
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