I am trying to talk but very hard, wonder if this all has anything to do with all my illness'es? I lost identical twin girls in '71 then my dad in '76 then my sis-in-law in '78 then bro-in-law in'80 then my bro took over the job of being my bro/daddy he is 20 yrs older than me he left exactly four yrs to the night we lost mom. My mom and dad and bro all died in my arms.
NOW, I have agoraphobia, (fear of getting outside my safe point), panic and anxiety attacks, IBS, I recently went deaf at 57yrs old and have arthritis and degenerative disc disease and fibro. The Dr said the stress is making the pain worse , I gove it to god many times but somwhow I guess I pick it up again.---star