I hate being shy, it always seens to intrude on the things I love. I am currently a senior and I attend a catholic high school. At my school all of the seniors are required to attend this four-day retreat, if everyone takes it the right way it should help them grow closer to each other and God. I actually had the opportunity to attend this retreat as a junior because I have a "specaial circumstance", my mom has huntingtons disease. Anyway, before I went on this retreat I was constantly wearing a mask, I always showed people that I was happy and I never told anyone about my mom other than a few close friends. On this retreat I found part of myself, and I am much more comfortable talking to people about my mom. Anyway, I applied to be a leader for the retreat, however I didn't think that I had much of a chance because I have been depressed for a majority of this year. Other than my mom being sick there are alot of other things that have happened to me. I just found out that I was chosen to be a leader on wednesday, I 'm really exicited about this. Now that the news has set in, I'm scared out of my mind to do this. As a leader I have to give a 40 minute speech about my life story and what God has done to help me. Most of the time I am very shy and quite and I get nervous easily. I am also going to be in charge of a small group of about 6 people, I am already beginning to doubt myself. I know that I have a great story to share with everyone, and that all i really need to do is stop doubting myself, but truth be told is that this is alot harder than it sounds.
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