I feel really fearful when I am with people. I seem to want to run away and hide and I get really scared. This happened to me when I went to my church group and at my son's baseball game. My husband is real outgoing and I just want to hide. I don't want to ruin it for anyone I just don't feel like talking because I am too scared and I am afraid I will come off as not being friendly and that hurts me because I want to be nice I am just really frightened lately and I don't know why I am starting to feel like this right now. I used to feel this type of shyness when I was a kid, really bad shyness and it seems to be starting up again these last few days. I am afraid I will make people not like me. I think the payoff for me is I probably don't want to get close to people. I am afraid they will hurt me so I stand back because with every type of thing a person does there is a payoff and that would be my payoff, I am afraid of getting close, afraid of being hurt so I am really frightened. This whole thing is killing me. I am here to learn from others and to learn that I may not be alone in these feelings. I think that will really help.
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