I'm involved in the community theatre in the town I live in and there's a guy who I've had a crush on for about a year now. I don't have the balls to tell him so mainly because I don't want to scare him off. I only get to see him a couple of times a month and during the times I don't get to see him Im miserable. He's white I'm black. I have arthristis and he's able bodied. I have a hard time looking him in the eye when I talk to him. When I see him I try to think of things to talk about to him and my mind goes blank. Then a hour later or a day later I think of something I could have said to him and I kick myself for not saying it. In a couple of weeks I'm auditioning for a play that he's directing. I first joined the theatre because I want to get back on stage so badly and for the first season I didn't audition for anything because I let my self doubt get the best of me. It's been 18 years since I've been in a play and I want this guy to think that I'm a talented, cool, sexy woman who can act. I will audition for this play even if that little voice inside my head tells me I'm wasting my time.
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