does everyone else have this problem? it doesn't matter what I buy- it's usually an impulsive purchase, and then I feel incredible guilt and shame. There have been more than a few times that this shame has made me severely suicidal. I know my hubby works so hard to keep (all 5 ) of us a-float. The doctor has put me on a NO SPENDING BUDGET. NO SPENDING MONEY- PERIOD. No going to the grocery store, no Wal-mart (esecially no wal-mart), no malls, no starbucks, NADA! I have handed over all my (maxed out) cards for hubby to hide, and I now should even hand over my debit card. It seems that even though I know there's no money, I spend anyway. During the "action" of buying whatever, I justify it to myself or to the kids, and then when I get home, the shame and fear and guilt hits me. I know we face the VERY real possibilty of losing our house if this doesn't stop. I really need to get my head together if we want to do any shopping for xmas. (it's just that sometimes, my husband can be such a cheapskate, that it makes me angry, but he's the ONLY thing saving us right now, tightass or not.)
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