I collect dolls, mainly Barbies. I was really out of control with the shopping a couple years ago. I was engaged and am not now, mainly because of the shopping. It was really a blessing in disguise that he left me, because he was emotionally abusive which is part of why I shopped. I managed to not buy any dolls on ebay or in stores from July to December. In fact, I sold $7,000 worth of stuff on ebay, but I am down to $1,500 now. I've blown it on dolls of course. I feel so out of control and am scared that I do not have enough control to hang on to this money. I was molested while growing up. One of my best friends is basically unavailable because she is married to a sorry loser, and my other good friend has become really self-absorbed lately and I don't know why. Needless to say, I am lonely, and I think this is why I have blown so much money lately. I can't find a sexual abuse survivor group that meets in person to save my life. I don't know why these are so low priority to counselors. Does anyone have any suggestions on anything?
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