I am a bit ashamed to write this but feel that I would like to share this with friends I hope will understand. I am devorced and been on my own about 6 years I was married to a abusive voilent man, but stuck it for the kids.

From early in our marridge my husband use to spank me with a belt like a naughty child if he was not happy with me, something like overspending not cleaning or shopping properly,not paying the bills on time, just simple things, his dad use to spank his mam with a belt and belived his mam respected his dad, for it.

I knew that he belived in what his dad did and we did discuss it before we did marry, he said to me that if you ever need a spanking then you will get one

I accepted what he said because I thought he was just letting me know he wanted to be obeyed but did not take to much notice.

I never dreamed he would have been like he was, the first time was about a year after we married I had been out with friends and came home merry not drunk, he never let me out again with friends and bent me over a chair and spanked me 20 times with his belt, the first time I begged him to stop I was crying so much.

I think he liked it so he started doing it often for the slightest thing a regular thing was 6 spankings with his leather belt that had a metal buckle.

I got spanked at least once a week after that, if the children was there he would say you are going to get a spanking later, simple things like the cleaning or ironing not done he always found a reason.

It was stange because he had this power and I accepted it strangly enough he would bend me over a chair and take my pants down and like a naughty child I dare not answer back, I then understood why his mam accepted off his dad.

when I have spoken to people about this the comments have been why did you put up with it but its easy to look from the outside, but I did WHAT HE SAID, always thinking I better do ????? or I will get a spanking, just like a child thinks.

It was hard but he would say you are defrying me so I just stoped like a cheeky child.

He would make me have sex even if I did not feel like it, this is the main reason I left him, he would again spank me, I want sex now and you will have sex with me NOW, I started been terrified.

He would treat me like a SLAVE he had total power over me, but as time went on he even got to sending me to stand in the corner, I cant belive I let him do it to me but it was total control

Please dont critzise and say what a silly sod to stand for that, The way it started he just got more and more power and he loved to control me, he would just say bend over the chair, and I did, but its hard to understand when you have not been in that situation.

I thought his mother was stupid to stand for it off his dad but I fully understand and if anyone reading this in a simlar situation dont put up with it like I did for the kids leave he does not love you

pinkflower