I used to be that way a LOT. Back when I was in high school, probably my sophomore & junior year. A friend would want to hang out & I'd just feel like staying locked away in my room not talking to anyone. So I'd lie to my friends & tell them I wasn't allowed, or I felt sick. It was very small of me to lie to friends but I just wasn't up for it. I hate to say it, but I really do think it is depression. During that time I just felt really rough and constantly sad. I felt alone & didn't want to do anything. After all you've been through the past few months, a sink into depression can only be around the corner. And hey, I don't blame you - if I went through all of that I'd be depressed too! Just try to force yourself to hang out with friends, family, and/or anyone that will be there for you and understand you. It always helped me to hang out with someone who I got along with, clicked with, laughed with, had a complete blase with, or could just talk to easily. Basically, a best friend. If you're with someone who makes you happy, and you're laughing & having fun.. then it'll help take your mind off of it. I'm allllll about the escapes I can take. The SAFE ones that I came across, are friends & sleep.

I can absolutely relate. I think it might just be that the healing takes up so much energy, there is very little left. I went to Vancouver a couple of years ago, by myself. I thought it would be good for me. I spent the majority of my time in my hotel room sleeping, watching tv or just lying on the bed. I think it is the body trying to rest and recover from the huge cost in energy that healing causes. I know my therapist always told me i was tired because i was doing some hard work. But I never felt like I was doing work- I felt like I was just a mess. But as I got better, I would have a little more energy. But I would do the smallest things, and it would drain me. It was only after 4 years of therapy, and then another 6 or 7 months after that that I had enough energy to do things I enjoyed doing more than once evry couple of months. And it helps that I take vitamins and try to eat better, because I suspect I was aneminc as well. I totally hid out, and still do. I think of it as recharging my batteries. Although sometimes it is to avoid family get togethers that I just don't think I can handle. I need a lot of time to myself, I am extremely introverted, and being around people drains me. Even more now that I am Older. Anyways, hope that helps. Good luck!~

Still feeling this way - usually if i get this way - it lasts just a day or 2. It's been about a week now. I just feel so lazy. i don't want to go to work, but i am so busy that i can't afford to take off. I feel myself kicking into fake mode again - meaning i put on my smile & forget everything else. I don't want to do that - i need to get past this stuff & quit stuffing it back down.

I can absolutely relate. I usually spend most of my time on the computer, or reading, anything where I don't have to think. I hate to be around others for too long, I just go batty because I think everyone is judging me, even though they're not. You are definately not alone in this.