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Suicide and what it does to thoughs around you.

rcp78
rcp78
Well, early this morning I found out that one of my good friends committed suicide late last night. When I heard it I was ok but very sad about it. Then I went to church this morning and before the service I talk to the Pastor and told him about it. The weird thing is that I just talked to my friend yesterday and everything seemed to be ok, just another day, it was the same old shit, we were joking and having fun and stuff. My pastor said he was just trying to say his good byes, but how inconsiderate cause I never got to say mine or have a chance to talk him out of it, God damn it, he never even hinted that there was anything wrong, there was No signs or anything. During the Sermon the Pastor said a prayer for him and I could not help but to feel like crying. I don't cry, I know I should not hold things in but that is how I am build. It is not a man to cry, that is how I was raised, but I really felt like it when the Pastor was telling the story and said the awesome prayer for my friend. To add to it the people at the church were all so supportive and that is something I am just not use to. My friend had kids and I feel for them, it makes me so sad that they have to go on without him. Why do people chose to kill themselves and not take in to consideration the feelings of those that love and care about them around them I may never understand. Now, I truly understand the pain someone could have though from someone doing such a thing and it sure does hurt to never have the chance to say good bye to him. I am asking all my friends on here to please keep my friend in all your prayers tonight. His name is Brian, and wish him a good journey up to heaven. Well, I got to go cause it is too hard to do this right now, the feelings are just too strong about it right now. Y'all have a good day and may god be with you all. If any of you ever feel like doing something like that reach out don't hurt those around you and leave things unsaid cause all that does is make those around you that care only feel lost and hurt in side. Don't be inconsiderate, there is always someone that cares out there and nothing is worth killing yourself over. Only god understands I guess. Well, hang in there y'all.Cry
deleted_user
deleted_user
he and you are in my prayers. I hope you and he find the peace you so deserve. I am so sorry for your pain. We too lost a very close friend last year. Jim also committed suicide.

It is real hard to understand why people feel they have no way out. Nor can I pretend to understand it. What I do know is that Bian fought his battles on a different plane than us. I just don't think that it is possible to understand the why or the depth of helplessness the loved ones left to go on feel, or the sadness.
deleted_user
deleted_user
That's the thing that those of us who have tried or thought about about killing ourselves don't understand...it leaves behind WAY too many unanswered questions and a lot of anger and guilt and sadness and a sort of open ended void that will never be closed because that person is gone and can't answer ANY of those questions. So by you just saying how you feel...it's an eye openenr and I appreciate it. And sometimes I wish more people who are left behind would speak out and let us know how shitty it feels because these sre the things I need to hear when all I'm thinking is that I'd rather be dead than face another day. I am sorry for your loss but I do thank you for your thoughts.
deleted_user
deleted_user
you are both in my prayers. i know how it is to lose a close friend. a few years ago i was with my best friend, Alex, and he was realy realy messed up but i left him so i wouldnt be into trouble with my parents. i snuck out later that night to go check on him and found him in his house after he shot himself in the head. he was still alive. i watched him die. your friend killing themself wasnt your fault. they gave you no sign to let you help them. so please dont blame yourself.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I'm truly sorry for your loss! I too lost my very best friend to suicide when I was 19yrs. old. She had been abused as was I and she took her life because of it. I could relate somewhat because I had tried myself when I was 13 but thank God I did not suceed because I would have missed out on so much life that I have lived. I was so angry and hurt with her for leaving us all. She hung herself and her little sister found her she is still dealing with that. She spent alot of time in and out of hospitals because of it. I often thought Why did she not think of the consiquences of her actions but evidently she didn't or she would not have hurt her sister so much; they were very close. I saw her the day before and had no clue either or I would have stopped her but she put on a good cover if it was planned.I knew that wasn't the right route to take. She had just gotten married and was getting ready to leave for her honey moon. I still to this day think of her almost daily and when our favorite song comes on I look up to the sky and talk to her even if it's just to say hey. I often wonder what if she hadn't gone how we could have had our familys together. I still miss her so she was my confidant my Chrystal!!!!!!!!!
deleted_user
deleted_user
sometimes the pain grows so deep that all you can think is how bad of a person you are. the pain is so bad that the only way out IS out. I'm not saying it's right. I'm saying it has to do with that person. He probably wanted to spare everyone. You never know until you walk in a persons shoe. Please don't be upset with me. I just see it from your friends point of view... not that it's right. I just understand that kind of pain. I'm very sorry for your pain. I struggle every day to stay alive. Do people know this? no. All i can end with is this... Love your friend for who he was.... don't let his suicide define who he was..... love, sara
deleted_user
deleted_user
My thoughts and love are with you.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I am very sorry you are going through this and sorry your friend did not reach out.
I am finding it very hard on here when someone does it, i know i need to detatch from it, but it tears me up inside.
You are both in my prayers.
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