i went out tonight with my mate, K, and i can handle my drink so i am fine, but she was more drunk than me and was in the mood to talk. and i was talking about getting nervous (we were talking about her anxiety) and i said how i feel sick and my legs get all floppy when im really nervous, and i told her that i told one of my other friends something that made me really nervous... anyways, to cut the story short she just said "was it about your sexuality?"
now maybe im being stupid but its kind of upset me, i just told her to fuck off (in a joking way, just like shut up your drunk kinda thing) and we didnt say anything else about it, but i know she said that because of the way i am. i am straight, i know that, just because we were out and i was wearing a sweatshirt and trainers, does not make me gay, and besides, id come out straight from college so wasnt even planning on going to the pub on a friday. it annoys me that she would assume that what i told my friend was about my sexuality, just because im not interested in guys now doesnt mean i want women, i dont want anyone, and she doesnt get that, but why would she, because she doesnt know what happened.
i dont know, myabe im being dumb, im not sure if i explained that very well, but its made me paranoid, like its made me wonder if other people see me, see that i dont have a boyfriend, (and dont care that i dont have a boyfriend), and assume that because i dont care i must be gay. it just makes me wonder, and scares me a bit.