Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
I just need to talk. I'm so scared. It's Tuesday and it was last Friday night that I remembered something that happened to me. I always knew there was something and I feel sure there's more. But here's the deal; I can't figure out if it was really wrong or if I simply couldn't handle it "normally."
So I'm asking anybody, please tell me if what happened to me was wrong or not:
From before an age where I remember until about 12, I would be made to pull my pants down to be spanked. And I remember my parents always holding my wrists together for it too. I often had my wrists hurt as badly as my bottom and a few times I remember having marks still on my backside the next day.
I can still feel it and hear it and see it. And I'm terrified. I'm so confused and I feel so helpless. Since Friday, in my daydreams my adult friends are a lot taller than me. I'm thinking and feeling as a little kid. I can't even cry - I just hyperventilate. It was something I did as a kid to be in less trouble.
Somebody please give me feedback. I'll write more soon, but first I want to know - is that kind of spanking normal? Am I just unable to handle it? What's the deal? I can't think as an adult now. I'm completely incapable and it's so hard. I need yall to step up and think for me.
So I'm asking anybody, please tell me if what happened to me was wrong or not:
From before an age where I remember until about 12, I would be made to pull my pants down to be spanked. And I remember my parents always holding my wrists together for it too. I often had my wrists hurt as badly as my bottom and a few times I remember having marks still on my backside the next day.
I can still feel it and hear it and see it. And I'm terrified. I'm so confused and I feel so helpless. Since Friday, in my daydreams my adult friends are a lot taller than me. I'm thinking and feeling as a little kid. I can't even cry - I just hyperventilate. It was something I did as a kid to be in less trouble.
Somebody please give me feedback. I'll write more soon, but first I want to know - is that kind of spanking normal? Am I just unable to handle it? What's the deal? I can't think as an adult now. I'm completely incapable and it's so hard. I need yall to step up and think for me.
kayrl
hey,well grabing your wrist so tight that you mad marks is not righ, and spanking you so hard that you had marks is not right either. when i was little i would get spanked with a belt but it never left any marks. so i guess what happend to you is not right.
deleted_user
I am right their with you I rember then using a belt and when I went to the school counsler they told me I was exagerating to get out of truble. their is no need for two adalts to tag teem a child for physical punishment. I had it done to me and I now know that it is not normal and not ok. Their is an ok way to spank and that is not it.
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