I hear that.
I hate how so many of my problems can be traced back to my abuse. Because of every problem that gets traced back to my abuse just demonstrates how David (my abuser) still fucking up my life.

i cant handel this alone anymore

You're not alone, we're all here because we feel it too. Even at your worst, remember that you're not alone, and the best revenge is learning to live happy.

im stuck here...in person...alone

I get tired of the "fall-out" from my abuse. I get tired of my abuser still controlling my life. But each day, I get a little stronger and each day I determine that for today, he will not control me. Just keep coming here for support. Don't give up. It will get better. I know that it doesn't help right now and hearing that it takes time doesn't help, but if you just need to vent or cry... I will always be here to "listen". There are no wrong things to say. I give value to all of the myriad of feeling that come with this recovery.

hello dark angel.
I am sorry you are feeling so bad. You know i am here for you. I have not been on here much in the last several days because i am a little overwhelmed.

hang in there

I'm tired of it too. I just want it to all go away. If i find the easy button I will let you know. Hang in there.

You were given a life sentence.Im sorry! Thats how I feel about myself.Like everyone else is saying you are not alone.You too will gain control of your life and body.It will get easier,I wish I could say it will someday be forgotten.BUT that will never happen.Try your best to continue to reach and and seek hep from others.Im here if you want to talk.You are strong and you spent all those years surviving,now its time to spend your years healing.I wish you the best! Kathie