Reading this is like a flashback to me. When I was 15 (I'm 19 now) I turned a little permiscous like you. I don't know what clicked or unclicked for me to do that, but I felt the same about it, who's it hurting? But really, it IS hurting you, little by little. I look back on the things that I've done and regret a whole lot. I'm not saying you will, but this is coming from someone who's already been there and seen that. I think it's something to do with our abuse as to why we do these kinds of things, in fact, we're not the only ones on this site to have been in your shoes. Anyway, if you ever need to talk about things, let me know. I don't want to get too detailed in this post because I feel kind of embarrassed at the things that I've done. So I hope this post helps, at least to know you're not alone and like I said if you ever need to talk I'm here. Stay strong.

Well, you may not think your hurting yourself, but are you careful about the guys your with? To state the obvious concern: STD's.Have you been tested recently?
You need to be.

Personally, I was never promiscous, I never had the chance to be, but if I was doing something that is supposed to be a pleasurable happy expereince, and was not getting anything out of it, I'd stop. It does not define you whether you ahve sex with a guy. You do not need a guy to survive. You need to discover yourself. Don't hide in sex.

It's really easy to say what the hell and go nuts but I can tell you, from my own experience, it just makes it more complicated. I'm 46. When I was in high school I just wanted to be loved, I only had sex with 1 guy in high school, but managed to get pregnant, and wound up having a miscarriage. Then when I was in college, because I was hanging out with the wrong folks, I wound up getting raped 2 times, and wound up pregnant again. I gave that baby up for adoption, she's now 26. I guess I was lucky because the only STDs then were curable, except for herpes, but it wasn't fatal. I had sex with a few different guys that I really didn't want to because I thought what the heck. All it did for me was make me feel worse about myself. There was no satisfaction there. Then I married a man who was so mentally abusive. I stayed with him for 20 years, until I finally managed to escape. I'm now married to the love of my life and sex with him is so amazing. I'm just praying that the everlasting effects of my abuse as a child won't run him off. I love him with all of my heart.

you can hurt yourself by catching something among other things, please try and take care of yourself.
I'm a member of the sexual addiction and self injury group, it's helpful for me. You are worth it, and you deserve good things, please be kind to yourself.

Hey your not the only one that has gone through this. After I had the courtcase I ended up sleeping around I even slept with people who I can't remember!
Don't feel bad by it! I think alot of people go through it!
Reen xx