A couple of days ago I was so fed up with feeling scared and anxious that I made a conscious decision to not get involved with any relationships only friendships that do not involve anything sexual. I was v surprised at how much better I felt! I think it was just too much and I have really high expectations of myself. For example in my head I would be expecting myself to get healed and cured and sorted in a few months so I am all ready for marriage kids and a great sex life. Now I cant think of anything more petrifying!! As soon as I took the relationship idea out of the equation I did feel a lot better. I then started thinking about better ways to look after myself and actually started feeling more myself than I have in a while! I dont know if this helps anyone or is a useful idea I just felt like writing it!! Maybe I will change my mind one day but it certainly feels really good for now!