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"My inner child is Scared"

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Yesterday I went to my counselors office. I have been just to the point of breaking down. sick to my somach all the time, cant eat or sleep, ive accepted that my cousin sexually abused me when I was young. He asked me if we could go save this little girl and rescue her. I have been in torment for so long, I guess kind of fighting this. I really didnt know what I was in for. I had memories coming back, physical stmptoms coming back, shaking, I couldnt sleep. Terrible things he did to me. I didnt know I would have to relive this terrible time of my life. She was so scared and so vulnerable. It was so scary and I was so alone. it made me see it WAS NOT MY fault. I got mad at first im trying to sleep. Would you please let me sleep?? Then I consoled her and told her everything was going to be all right. I did everything that I remembered the counselor telling me. I woke up thinking Am I crazy, This is all I can think about. Tene going to drop my kids off at school, I thought i saw a little girl saying "Dont leave me, Dont leave me," I had to say to myself I wont ever leave you.
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This is brilliant. Well done.
I can't do the inner child work, i have tried, it is too darn deep for me.
My inner child is scared and hurting too.
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You're not going insane. It's great that you are working with your inner child. What I do sometimes is watch animated movies that I never got to watch as a child. Spouse doesn't understand why I need to. That's okay. I know that my inner child needs it. Keep it up.
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VERY GOOD. I IS FUNNY YOU MENTIONED THIS.

Yesterday i started to write my first poem. I thoght after reading so many on this site that it might be a way helping heal. I call it my journey and I didn't were it would take me.

I found myself connecting totally with my inner child.

I don't know if i will post it becasue as a poem it is terrible. but as an expression of my journey it is good.

thank you
this has encouraged me to keep working on my first poem.
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Ive never written any poetry but maybe will try. I really think this inner child stuff will work. But boy was I angry when it clicked in my mind what I actually had to go through. I guess my counselor knew I was ready and strong enough, i should stop doubting myself. But this stuff is really consuming me, I wonder how long does it last.All of a sudden I will be in a zon and start remembering and I guess I can choose not to but then I really star to feel icky. Does any one know what Im talking about???
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I hear ya! New memories are hard to deal with but stay strong it gets easier. We're just healing from the inside out. My inner child is crying today so I will take your advice and take a bubble bath, love em! I've been healing for yrs. and although I have my bad days still they are fewer and farther between than they use to be. I also don't totally fall apart like I use to either. I do what needs to be done to get me through it and move forward. I write or do something that makes me feel good until it passes. I've just never written on a place like this but there is a first time for everything.
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