I am so sorry that you didn\'t get any responses sooner than now. I think we were all pretty tied up with Christmas and stuff. Hope you are doing better now.
When I get like that, which I often do, I journal or listen to music with my eyes shut and really HEAR the words. I focus totally on the words being said.
Sometimes there is not much we can do. Especially in the times of real need-like you were describing. It\'s good that you can color and get through it.
Do you have any meds on hand to use in those instances?
I really am sorry that there was no one here for you when you really needed someone to talk to. We are usually really \"available\"-so it was just the holiday hustle keeping us away for a bit. Feel free to \"talk\" anytime and ALL the time!!
Take Care of You

Yes I do have meds on hand for those situations, but I am so afraid to take more than 50mg of my seroquel because when I get that way I just want to take the whole bottle. Which is not good. I need to be here for my kids.
Renee

Is there anyone that could \"hold\" the seroquel for you? Ya know, like just keep them and give you only ONE when you say you need it? Sometimes we need people like that in our lives to help us with urges like that.
What else can you think of to do when you get into that state?

I talked with my doctor about it and he told me not to take any more than 400mg during the day on a really bad day. So that makes me feel better. He also told me to start taking 50mg every morning for the next 6 weeks, or until the sun is out more. He thinks that sesonal depression is part of my problem right now.

My neighbor suffered from seasonal depression, his doctor gave him Paxil CR. He always told me that within a week or two of starting it he always felt much better.

rnd78- I\'m glad you are feeling better about it. Seasonal depression is a biggie for a lot of us, I think.
Keep talkin\'-that helps too!
Happy New Year!