I want to get better but I don't want to feel
I want someone to tell my my life isn't real
If I could go back and change some things
I wouldn't fell the pain the PTSD brings
I want to wake up from this nightmare of life
And see that everything really is alright
Why can't it all just have been a dream?
Why did it all have to happen to me?
They say its not my fault, I'm not to blame
So why in the world do I feel so ashamed?
Some moments are okay, but most are no
Why can't I keep the good ones in my thoughts?
I want to make decisions all on my own
I want to be able to do things alone
But I need someone to take care of me
Cuz right now I don't have the energy
I need a magic pill to make it all go away
To just forget about everything, even for one day
The mood swings are so aggravating to me
One moment Im mad, the next I'm happy
But what do I have to feel happy about these days?
Probably something that is lost in the haze
It's hard to see through it when everything is dark
Little rays of sunshine tend to break my heart
It starts out good, then it turns to bad
Here we go again, it's time to get mad
I want the old me back, or maybe someone new
She is the one who brought on the need for super glue
Super glue to put the pieces back together
I don't like that girl, I don't want to see her - ever
I should rearrange the pieces, start over again
To make a new girl who doesn't know where I have been